everytime i check up a word in the dictionary i either find another word i don't know soon afterwards or see another one i don't know in the explanation of the original word i was looking up or another word i don't know in the same page. and then i keep looking up more and more words and start panicking cos i know so little and eventually i give up cos i can never remember all of the words i look up in this hopeless cycle. and then i start to get depressed cos i don't understand so much of what's around me. what a crock.