today we discussed life after death in philosophy. and i think i've found the solution.

looks like the big guy ain't too happy about this movie.



i feel displaced.



but that's not really right cos that would mean i had a place.



another lesson-free friday, and i'm wondering what i should do. of course the obvious option would be to study. and i have this feeling that i'll just end up wasting my day in my room doing nothing staring at this computer screen for hours. and perhaps taking another wasteful nap.



it's the same old problem. not doing what i set out to do here. or at least trying.



i think that one thing i've gained from here so far is confidence. but i think i'll just fall back into singaporean attitudes and strides pretty soon after i get back. another faceless automaton in our economic machinery. of course if i return with a different attitude, people are just gonna think i'm being a banana and all in-your-face with Overseas Study Syndrome. as usual i think i'll face it with the same old attitude that i had. i'll try not to give a damn.



i want to watch kill bill.



i want to catch up with music. i want a big cd store with listening stations. i miss borders.

another slow day on the news front.

well i handed up my philo essay. it's finally over and done with. but not before making me fall sick. think it's the lack of sleep and the stress (you'd better believe it). i actually spent about a week on this essay. and still i think its quite crap. oh well, will only know once it gets back to me. hopefully soon. and i wondered why uni students can spend so much time on their work. sigh.



exams in 3 weeks. and it's pretty scary how much i have to go over. and i have so little time. and all i do is feel tired nowsadays. maybe it's the sickness. i hope it's just the sickness.



small stories has got a new story up. and it looks like it's gonna be a long one again. it's up in instalments. so check it out if you guys have the time and the interest.



the english students are outside my door and having pizza. the smell is coming into my room. god i'm so hungry.



no one at home will ever believe i'm this hardworking here.

"Most people don't even talk about it let alone care. I cannot fathom a life without the arts. By that same token, most of my friends cannot fathom why I enjoy going to art exhibitions or watching foreign art house films. For many, it's really a waste of money and time; precious time better off spent thinking of ways to make money. Unless of course it's free..."



- Michelle Chang, "Singapore Jam and The End of PASSION.", An interview with BigO.





read the interview here.



also, three more links down at the left of this page. check them out.





it's been a sucky few days. besides the gig at the tavern and my friend invading my room one night to hang out, it's been a real chore just to even get through the day (and night). what with all the impending deadlines and exams looming right there in front of me, not even around the corner. i see it all too clearly. and i know the guilt that follows all too well. i gotta really get my act together if i want to avoid that which haunts me, and threatens to haunt me even more.



am currently listening to the get up kids on my headphones plugged into the computer. trying to clear my head and relax a little before i get down to my philosophy essay yet again. stayed up most of last night in a quite futile attempt to get the better part of my readings done. but i did do quite a lot of it and understand quite a bit more than i did previously. so i guess that's better than nothing.



everything is always "better than nothing". but "better than nothing" is always never enough.



another sunday morning. another day shot to hell. another day to waste.



i'm going to be 22 soon.



it's been a sucky few days.

i went to check out screamfeeder at the tavern today. that's the university pub. and man was i glad i went. screamfeeder are excellent! me and yu were the only chinese there. we represented big time cos we sat way in the front of the place. it wasn't crowded at all. i was seriously happy even though my ears rang for a long time afterwards. i was a happy peppy boy. was tempted to tear off one of the posters of them around the uni and get them to sign it. but i was too lazy to.



here's something cool to look at. man i miss so many of these. chekkit! oh and for a cool theme song. find the 'wuzzles' link and click on it.

tomorrow there is a national education strike supposedly all across australia against national education reforms. some lessons have been cancelled and stuff. but not all. and everyone's encouraged to strike out against the reforms. there's some demonstration going on in the city in the afternoon and the highway leading to the school is going to be picketed up by strikers.



what am i going to do tomorrow?



i'm going to go for whichever of my lessons that haven't been cancelled and i'm gonna hand up my linguistics assignment.



and i'm hoping there will be no news reporters lurking in school or angry strikers trying to force me to strike too. i want to go to class. and i don't want to be deported.



well, i tried to hold a rally in school tomorrow. but i didn't manage to get much (any) support at all for my protest against the english literature essay questions we got a few weeks back.



oh well.

here in my hall, the sprinkler system for the greenery switches on at around 2 o'clock in the warmer seasons.



right now, the sprinklers are on.



there is one right outside my window.



the noise it is making is fucking irritating.



i want to sleep.



sigh.

the inevitable has happened.



i have finally taken my fan out and plugged it in and switched it on.



it's getting really stuffy and warm.



ugh.

what the fuck.

one shot of the fireworks from my friends cam. they were all fired from this wagon thing in the middle of the field. wondered why it didn't explode or something. would've been more spectacular.



anyway.



new photos up. very blah stuff. don't fall asleep looking at them.



it's a nice sunny day. spring is probably officially here.



i feel like sleeping.



ugh.

it's the last day of spring break today.



ok wait a minute, i just realised something. isn't spring break supposed to be full of chicks in biks and flashing their boobies for no apparent reason? what the fuck have i been doing this past two weeks?!



oh well there's always next year. i'll be back in the summer, and i don't think there'll be any flashing in singapore (you think?).



i've done minimal work, i've slacked maximumly. i am a normal student.



i am a normal student starting to sense the guilt that lays in store for me for not working hard.



i gotta get crackin'.

went to the perth royal show a few nights ago and it was pretty fun. it was so corny storybook movie carnival like. like a mixture of carnivals you see in movies and the type of country side fairs you read in storybooks by enid blyton. and that was what made it fun. there were farm animals and stuff and games and candy and a baking competition and fireworks and bike stunts. the fireworks were cool cos i don't get to see them so up close back home, and it's those cool types not like the ones set off every national day full of pyrotechnic pomp. it was a cool night. didn't buy anything or play any games cos it was pretty ex and they already charged admission. its a pretty big fair.



as i woke up this morning, i opened my door to go to perform my morning ablutions and as i glanced at my door, i noticed someone had scrawled something on the attached whiteboard (every door has one) with a red marker.



"I have sex with men"



i wondered who it was, thinking it was my friend who lives along the same corridor. but then i noticed that it's the same crappy marker the english exchange students use. basically these two students. so i have narrowed it down to richard or toby who live opposite me. but anyway they're cool people and i sometimes talk cock to them so it's all cool. so what i did was i rubbed out the "I' and the "n". so if you guys are smart enough, you'll realise whats left.



oh, and last night on my floor, some schmendrick set off the smoke alarm by trying to heat something up in the microwave still wrapped in aluminium foil. what a genius. and there's even a notice next to the microwave with warnings and guidelines of how to use the microwave. the fire brigade came down and the hall was fined $1000 cos they already had come down on two earlier occasions and they were also false alarms. but the good thing was, i wasn't in my room at the time so i didn't have to get out and go through the fire drill. when i heard of it, my first reaction naturally was ohmygod is it my room that's on fire? then i was thinking, fuck i should've switched off my laptop. but then, it wasn't me. good for me then.



yeah, yeah, i know you suckers are thinking, "damn! why didnt he perish in a fire?!". well too bad. i'm still alive and i'll be back soon so chill the champagne and polish the flutes alright?







please?





...bitches.